Colours of Life

A Du'a (prayer) of a fat girl

2012-02-17T10:34:00.003+08:00

Huda is...

...FAT! fAt! FaT! fat! FAt! fAT!

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I guess that's people's favourite phrase these few weeks. It's like they don't have feelings, or maybe they don't have a good heart that the meaning of 'empathy' isn't in their life dictionary now.

When they see me eat, they would say I eat a lot that's why I'm fat. And when I don't eat much, they would say it's not like I'm going to lose my weight even though I don't eat.

I just don't know what sin I've done towards them that they like to pick on me ON MY WEIGHT. Maybe they think they're good enough to hurt other people's feeling with their words.

What if God take away the gift of mouth and tongue, would you be saying bad things to others and about others? Sometimes I wish God would do that to them, but I know better. Asking God to punish them that way would bring me to the same level.

So...

Dear God, I just want to ask for patience, as much as it take to make those people stop saying nasty things to me, and please Dear God, purify our heart so that we would not think about hurting other people anymore, and even if we do accidentally hurt other people, we would apologize with an open and honest heart. Ameen!

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REMINDER TO MYSELF:

"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice."
Wayne Dyer

Quitting. Should I?

2012-02-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

I'm thinking of quitting my day job.

Should I?

Dear God,
please help.
Show me the best thing to do.
Thank you.

Terukir Di Bintang

2012-02-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

SayangkuJangan kau persoalkan siapa di hatikuTerukir di bintang tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu. -Yuna-

I don't know why really, but this part of the song always manage to make me close to tear (if not crying) - never fail! And, many times, when I got into the car, I switch on the radio (usually my favourite radio station, HotFM), the first song that come out would usually be this song.

I hate crying because of a song (especially when I don't even know the reason), but I love Yuna's songs.

Yeah, how bad can it be?

2012-02-09T15:12:00.003+08:00

“As long as there was coffee in the world, how bad could things be?”

― Cassandra Clare, City of Ashes

Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You) by Kelly Clarkson

2012-02-07T21:46:00.001+08:00

It doesn't kill me, does it?

*wink*

Hope for tomorrow

2012-02-07T13:05:00.005+08:00

Last week my mom was near to tear when she saw a pile of clean clothes that she hasn't go the time to sort out. I hope when she comes home tomorrow, she'll be happy to see a cleaner house.

Hope to see a hope made today doesn't remain a hope tomorrow.

Time Management

2012-02-01T19:28:00.004+08:00

I'm way behind in my work now. Wish I could turn back time.

Yes, I know, I have to manage time properly - been telling myself that over and over again but I have never succeed in doing so. This is the one of the things that wrecks my life, I know it well.

And yes, the disability to refuse trying out stuff (read: grabbing every opportunity there is) leaves me with a pile of work. Not good. Seriously, I must be more selective, but thinking whether I have enough time to try out every good thing that comes makes me grab every opportunity. I shouldn't.

I must restructure my short term and long term goals because I have seen it work. How can I forget I was in the Dean's List after I listed down my goals during my first and second semester at UNiSEL, thanks to Prof. Elina for teaching the whole class that.

Now, what's the plan?

Busy like bees

2012-01-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

I am now a writer. Alhamdulillah! I write for an educational and entertainment website for children. Frankly, I have never thought anyone would offer me to write for them. Thank you Jojo for inviting me to write for Morrieland.I love writing for the website as a part time job, but then, there's a catch: my time management has to be superb, which is not what I'm good at.

And wait, there's more. Starting this year, I have to work on Khalifah Method class syllabus which isn't very easy to do.

At the moment, I have some pending work to get done. May Allah ease everything to get my work done, Ameen!

I'm Sorry

2012-01-16T18:58:00.001+08:00

Today isn't one of the best days of my life.

Every worrying thing that I always put behind me is attacking my mind. It's like today they have regained their power over me.

Well, the most worrying thing is when I'm mean to other people when I am stressful, trying to handle the worries that are attacking my mind.

To those who are affected, I'm so sorry.

Fake

2012-01-03T19:51:00.001+08:00

Sort of enjoying their presence in Virtual World, but...

Remember Huda,

Dreamland
Fairytale Land
Virtual World
Wonderland

They are all fake, created by the imagination of human mind.

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Wordless Wednesday: Editing All Day

2011-12-07T17:18:00.001+08:00

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Maybe...

2011-12-06T18:35:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah! Finally, my computer is working okay. No more break down my dear computer (uh, I've been thinking, should I give my computer a name?) please.

Lately life is a mess. Maybe because I have to juggle a few things at the same time, maybe multitasking isn't my thing, or...

Maybe I need a break.

If I die young...

2011-11-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I'm a goner

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'

Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

-If I Die Young by The Band Perry-

Does it cost my soul to make people listen?

A short note for my dearest sisters

2011-11-29T02:05:00.000+08:00

Dear Angah, Alin and Adik,

I’m sorry I’m not a good role model to you gals, but I’m determined to be a good sister. I really hope your life is better than mine and that you won’t be such a failure like me.

Do take care of yourself and always make good choices. The world isn’t a nice place to live now. Before you know it, you might already be defeated, so watch your step.

Love,

Along

Please. Just listen to us!

2011-11-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

I’ve just watched ‘Lemonade Mouth’ on TV3. It’s about a bunch of high school kids who want to be heard. I can feel them. I used to be one, and sometimes, still, people don’t really care of what I feel or what I say.

I used to hate it when my parents sent me to school in Kota Bharu. The first four years, I tried my best to ace PMR because at that time, acing PMR seemed like the best way to get away from that school, but it turned out that I had to stay there for another two years though my PMR was fine. Bummer! And so, that marks the start of a doom future for me. My grades dropped, I started to mix around with naughty bunch, I skipped classes often, and in the end, I have becoming a girl who would shut her thoughts, letting others to decide, because it seemed like people did not care about what I think, or what I feel, or even what I say!

Before this, I put the blame on my parents, but I’m no more a little child, I have come to realize that yes, my parents should have listened to me from the beginning but then, I am the one in charge of myself. And I should have made the my choice wisely.

So for teenagers out there, if you hear me, please try to make good choices because whatever choices you make today, would affect your future. You wouldn’t want to purposely wreck your future just because of mistakes you can actually avoid in the past.

As for parents, I have never agreed on the saying ‘mother knows best’ but I always believe that ‘mother wants the best for her children’ – that’s why parents need to make decisions after they have listened and considered their children’s opinion.

Ouch! That hurts.

2011-11-19T02:03:00.000+08:00

I've never thought loneliness can hurt this bad.

"And the heart remains."

Wordless Wednesday: Food Galore

2011-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

Static

2011-11-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

To someone I know virtually for a long time.

Eyes that have never met each other,

Hearts that are so clueless

About uncertainty of what lies ahead

Adventure that awaits

Could break our heart

More than ever

Shooing the emotion far,

Far away.

But

Waiting wastes time,

Moving fast is impatience.

And the hearts remain.

Watak by Hafiz

2011-11-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

I just love the message in this song!

A revision of 'Entropy'

2011-10-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

It seems like a long time since I last updated my blog. My notebook is broken and I got so bored! I mean, even without Internet, I can do a lot of other things using my notebook. Now it's like I've broken four fingers (two on my right hand, and the other two on my left hand - those fingers are the fingers I use to type on my notebook). I'm hoping my brother would have some free time this week so that he could fix my 'baby' (that has been abandoned for a week now).

So today, using my sister's notebook, I managed to write something here. She's been busy lately with her assignments and all so I don't want to disturb her. As for me, physically, I am busy but mentally, I am busier. Juggling things in my mind is really tiring that could lead to emotional break down.

Lately I've developed a habit of crying while driving. Maybe that's the time no one I know can see me crying. Sometimes I wonder, would crying make me weak? Or would it make me tough? If it makes me weak, what else should I do? O'Allah, help me be patient and please guide me to do what's right, ameen!

Well anyway, yesterday I was at the office. I managed to listen to Sis Azra's 'Objective Understanding of Right and Wrong', kind of a revision to me. Sis Azra did put some info about the term 'entropy'. I think I've written about this once. Entropy is a scientific term to any closed system that is left on its own that will eventually drift towards negative (chaos). Let's say we put a glass of water on a table, leave it for at least two days. You would soon find the water dirty. Or, you lock and leave a room for a month, when you come back, there would be dust all over the room and if you're lucky enough, you might see the spiderweb on the ceiling! It's not like you purposely dirty it, but it still become dirty.

When we talk about entropy, I love to relate it to our skills and also to our imaan (faith). If we do nothing to improve our imaan, we would soon drift towards the negative. Maybe that's why Islam encourages Muslims to keep seeking knowledge, praying, doing zikr, reciting the Holy Quran etc. - so that our imaan won't drift towards the negative.

See how scientific Islamic teaching is?

Wordless Wednesday: About Art And Reading

2011-10-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

Put Yourself in Other People’s Shoes PLEASE!

2011-10-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Islam is a way of life. Islam is not just by the way you pray on time five times a day or doing zikr. Islam is not just that, because it is there in all part of life. Islam includes how you deal with your waste or how you wear, or even how you drive your car!

Islam is also about dealing with people around us. Islam does not tell us to purposely trouble our brothers and sisters, or cause damage to the society. Once, my mom shared with me the tafsir from a surah in the Quran (can’t remember which, either surah an-Nuur or surah an-Nisaa’) – why zina (adultery) and murder are considered a big sin in Islam? It is because zina and murder can bring negative effect (read: ruin) to the society.

I’ve seen a lot of Muslims (even myself - always. Forgive me O’Allah!) purposely ruin the society from words they say and things they do. If there is something we do not like a friend, a neighbour or even a family member do or say to us, we must never do it to them. We need to treat people the way we like people to treat us. That means, if you don’t like a brother or sister to hand over unnecessary work (that’s supposed to be theirs) that will take your precious time with your family or your time to rest, you must not do it to them in the first place. Try putting yourself in other people’s shoes. If you are a human being, so as your friends, colleagues, neighbours, family members, even a stranger.

Abu Hamzah Anas bin Malik RA who was the servant of the Messenger of Allah SWT reported that the Prophet SAW said, “No one of you (really) believes in (Allah and in His religion) until he loves for his brother what he loves for his own self.”

[Al-Bukhari and Muslim relate this]

So, however you love yourself, that's how you should love other people, especially your Muslim brothers and sisters, only then you are considered as a true believer.

To those who feel so troubled with things that other people make them do (even though it's not even your responsibility!), be patient, for Allah is with those who are patient, inshaAllah. If you feel like you have no power to object (but really, you have freewill that enables you to make your choice, don't waste that ability Allah has given you), seek Allah's guidance and take it positively. I hope the thought of Allah being with you manages to give a peace of mind to you, inshaAllah.

That's all my two-cents.

See ya!

Big Bad Wolf Book Sale 2011 is on NOW!

2011-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow: Big Bad Wolf Book Sale 2011 - The Biggest Book Sale in the WORLD! with Zarina.

Can't wait!

To those who are going, maybe you should check out this 'Survival Guide' before going. It could be a big help to you book hunters.

Big Bad Wolf Book Sale 2011 Survival Guide

Those who are going, enjoy!

Video from Akhirah Deficit Disorder (ADD) by Imaam Suhaib Webb

2011-10-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

Imaam Suhaib Webb - he's one of the coolest Imaams around. The first time I listen to his talk live was when I joined a camp organised by Muslim Professional Forum (MPF) and Young Muslim Project (YMP) last year. When he appeared on TV AlHijrah during Ramadhan, I love watching his show.This video was shared by a YMP brother in YMP's Facebook page. Let's watch it and gain at least one or two beneficial knowledge from it.

Single But Blessed d[^_____~]b

2011-10-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

I've just read this inspiring blog post from a sister called Umm Sulaym about being upset for being single.

"And please do me another favour: Don’t die before you’ve died," she said.

Though I do not consistently feel sad about being single, the thought of 'I'm not good enough' would once a while attack my mind, but that thought would then be shooed away by thinking, 'Allah loves me, He knows I would be even more miserable if I got married when the time isn't right!'

And anyway,

Despite being single, I feel blessed

for...

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Family

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Friends

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Food and Drink

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Hobbies

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Books & Knowledge

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Being a Muslim

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Hijaab

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And lot's of other things. There's no end to this list for Allah has granted me a lot - I believe that's how Allah love me.

Again, let's say "Alhamdulillah" for everything that we have, and, let's stop whining about being single, or about being 'out of love'.

By the way, this song below is one of my favourites. Hope you enjoy it too, the song, the lyrics - everything about it, just the way I enjoy it.

Wordless Wednesday: Saving for Big Bad Wolf book sale 2011

2011-10-05T09:25:00.000+08:00

I want to be a BILLIONAIRE!

2011-10-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad but no, not just to buy everything I've never had. I have better plans I'm not going to share with you here. And how do I be rich? No, not by being a ~~gold digger~~. I want to set up my own business and I hope I get to start off with a small bookshop where school kids love to hang around the shop with family and friends. I want to be like Siti Khadijah, the Prophet's wife - a successful entrepreneur, inshaAllah!

Anyway, I've registered myself for entrepreneurship course and hopefully I get to learn enough to start from there, inshaAllah. Please make du'a for me guys. I really need it.

And whenever I talk about being rich, I always pray that Allah would grant me good friends who could remind me to be grateful and thankful for whatever thing I have, because Allah is the owner of everything, even the money I have in my pocket. Anytime He wishes, He could take it away from me.

So Huda,

BE RICH, BUT NEVER FORGET TO SAY "ALHAMDULILLAH!"

I Googled 'money RM' and one of the picture that came out is this one.

I don't even know why. Maybe golden chicks would come out when these eggs hatched.

Dream Kitchen

2011-10-03T22:43:00.003+08:00

I captured this picture yesterday at IKEA. It seems small but then, why do you need such a big kitchen when you just want to cook for your family? And anyway, big kitchen means you have to spend more and put more effort to keep it clean.

Wondering when am I going to have my own house? *dreaming*

You Can Count On Me!

2011-09-30T23:10:00.001+08:00

“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.” —Elbert Hubbard.

Wondering how many do I have?

Well, to those awesome people, this is for you.

Lots of love,

History Repeating Itself

2011-09-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

I felt it before and I might feel it once again.

Oh well. Hope I'm able to shrug off that feeling.

What for?

2011-09-30T15:55:00.001+08:00

Yeah, he passed (the evaluation or whatever) but...

for what?

He Passed?

2011-09-29T17:39:00.000+08:00

"He passed (her evaluation or whatever)," she said.

Haha! It's like getting an approval from SIRIM.

Where Are Thou At?

2011-09-29T00:53:00.003+08:00

Alaaaa... my sneakers are...

GONE!

I gotta find them or else I can't jog on the treadmill - running on the platform without suitable shoes would hurt my feet and if I don't run, I would remain fat.

Triple bummer!

The Choice Is YOURS!

2011-09-28T19:08:00.000+08:00

"Masjid or Night Club? Praying or Laziness? Qur’aan or Music? Conference or Television? Honesty or Betrayal? Parents or Futility? Hijab or Nude? Chastity or Sexual Immorality? Boyfriend or Husband? Wedding or Zina? Hajj or Travel? Paradise or Hell?" -Taken from Cahaya Petunjuk's Facebook.

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The choice is ours since we are given the gift of 'freewill' but we need to remember that we are responsible and accountable towards our choice and action.

There was this one phrase I took from the movie 'Freaky Friday' which I love so much, "Make good choices!" the mother reminded her rebellious daughter. At that time I wasn't familiar with Khalifah Method just yet but I was well aware that we do need to make choices in our life and there would be a good one and a bad one, but either one, we still have to make our choice.

After I have learnt Khalifah Method (and later work for Khalifah Institute), I realised that it's more than just good or bad choices, it's the choices that would bring us closer or far from Allah. The closer we get to Allah, the more chances we have to lead a happy life, end our life with 'husnul khotimah' and later on insha Allah, enter Jannah.

So let's all work together hand-by-hand to fulfill our responsibilities as a Khalifah Allah.

May Allah bless us all inshaAllah.

Watch Your Words Please!

2011-09-28T18:55:00.001+08:00

Oho... they're doing it again! They made fun of my spectacles which hurts me until now. I had to leave early because I could not stand being in the office any longer today or else people might catch me crying. I can be very sensitive at times, I know.

But...

Looking at it positively, it is a reminder to myself not to talk about things people don't like. We must never do things that we do not like to other people. So Huda, learn from your experience, try your very best to talk all the good things about other people and avoid talking bad about anyone.

When I was driving, I was relating what had happened just now to my Sisters' Circle session last Friday. We talked about how talking unnecessary things could harm you. I wish I have the copy of things I found on the Internet last week about that topic so that I get to share with all of you.

Taken from Islam1.org,

The Messenger (S.A.W.) warned us about the seriousness of speaking.

The prophet said, in an authentic hadith reported by Imams At-Tirmithi and Ibn-Majah, that, “A person may say a word that is pleasing to Allah (S.W.T.) and he may not think much of it, but Allah (S.W.T.) will, (because of that word), bestow his pleasure upon him on the Day of Judgment, and a person may say a word that is displeasing to Allah (S.W.T.), and he may not think much of it, but Allah will have, (because of that word) put his wrath and anger on him on the Day of Judgment.”

So, before we let ourselves get carried away laughing about the so-called funny stuff we say about people, let's all stop and think. Does the thing that we laugh about please Allah? Would our words bring us to Jannah? We need to make the choice ourselves, not other people and we are accountable for every decision made.

“A wise man talks only when it is necessary; for talking takes time away from thinking”

― Ratshisindi

I don't even know who this guy Ratshisindi is but I agree with what he said. When we're too busy talking, we're too busy to think - after all, one's mind could not do two things at one time properly. Yeah, maybe people could listen while reading but the quality of both activities is doubtful.

Blah... blah... blah... Part II

2011-09-28T06:51:00.002+08:00

After Eid-ul-Fitr, I bought a new phone. Frankly, in my life I bought new phone only twice: one was when I was still studying in UTMKL, that was some time in 2004 I think. I used the money my parents gave for getting 4As in SPM (okay fine, I wasn't a bright kid then, and still am not). The second time was, of course, recently.

My spectacles are new too. It's pinkish red, and bold. And someone said my spectacles are like the ones in Ultraman and kept saying that. Doesn't he have better thing to say? I don't even watch Ultraman, and I'm not a little boy who got so proud when being compared to an Ultraman, for God's sake!

On Monday, another someone, well two people really, said something about my body. They said I am round (read: FAT) and made fun of me eating. I eat like everybody else, the potion isn't as much as some other people and I rarely have more than one serving. What am I to do when my body gets larger when I eat? And if I don't eat, I would have a series of gastric attack. When I have gastric, whatever that comes into my body would be rejected straight away, even a cup of water couldn't get through!

But despite of all those unhappy things, I'm excited because starting 7 October until 16 October 2011, there would be another Big Bad Wolf Book Sale 2011 at MAEPS, Serdang. They have English books at incredible price - mostly at 75-95 percent discount. I wrote about it in Buku, Dan Sewaktu Dengannya blog. My friends and I, inshaAllah, we're going on the 9th. Can't go later than that, or else the titles in my list might be sold out and that's the only weekend that I'm free in October. You are welcome to tag along. Visit their website for more info.

Okie dokie. I'm outta 'ere!

To Huda, From Huda

2011-09-27T17:46:00.001+08:00

Dear Huda,

Please don't be too quick to fall for him.

Thank you, may you have a blessed life.

Love,

Blah... blah... blah... Part I

2011-09-27T01:17:00.001+08:00

After thinking for a while, I've decided to jot down something in this precious page. Who knows, I might die tomorrow, then people would know what I did before I die.

If I were to write everything, I would bore you people. So, I'm just going to touch on a few things that I think are interesting but errr... what if everything is interesting? Haha! Just read through. Hope my words don't kill.

Where should I begin? Okay, first thing, I just have to tell you that I'm quite happy that my first Bahasa Melayu short story won the Pertandingan Cerpen Bertema 6th Edition with the theme 'Ramadhan' in Kapasitor. If you've been following my blog all these while, you would know I publish my writing there.

Next: Now it's like a month already since Raziq first made Khalifah Institute office his classroom. He won't get to join the activities with his friends except when he achieves certain points. During his presence in the office, we don't really know what we did that in the end he shows how interested he is in learning al-Quran. Alhamdulillah! He does have the potential, and with continuous support inshaAllah he would become a Qari or a Haafiz one day, I truly believe in that. And now for two days, he manages to get above 60 points which enables him to join all classes. Keep it up kid!

Others? There are a lot more to tell but it's already 1am and I have to get some rest. Maybe later today I'll write again.

Good night Earthlings!

Maddi Jane's Just The Way You Are

2011-09-27T00:24:00.001+08:00

I don't feel like writing much. I do what I love doing since I was a little girl - listening to songs and sometimes sing along. My voice isn't nice but what do I care?

Anyway, I think this girl is amazing. Really love Maddi Jane singing Price Tag. But Price Tag isn't as tough as this song or Rolling in the Deep.

So, okay, just take a listen. You might enjoy her singing.

Rocket by Yuna

2011-09-26T12:49:00.001+08:00

Even my dad knows I love listening to Yuna's songs. Maybe because I have Yuna's CD in the car apart from Sami Yusuff's and Maher Zain's CDs.

Tiada Gadis Secomel Aku...? Tipuuuuuuu!

2011-09-17T00:46:00.001+08:00

I think this song is cute.

The First Ever

2011-09-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Something that I have written: Bahagia Si Cilik Ecah

Suddenly...

2011-07-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

Suddenly...

There's sadness in me.

The characteristics of a Khalifah

2011-07-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

The characteristics of a Khalifah of Allah (according to them):

One of them is treating people kindly. Primary school kids know that. How about us, the grown-ups? Let's self-reflect.

Rindu!

2011-07-11T17:09:00.002+08:00

RINDU!

I miss quilling sooOOOoOOoOoOOOOOOOOooooOooOo much!!!!

Aku Sudah Tidak Kuat

2011-07-11T10:11:00.001+08:00

Aku sudah tidak kuat.

Sometimes you need to shut up.

2011-07-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

I really do not understand. Of all people, why do they have to mention him as the one God might have destined for me? I thought words like that would stop months ago but it keeps coming without warning.

Maybe they mean good but it's just not the right joke, and when you're getting older and still single, people just love making fun out of your status. So finding someone who would marry you is a solution, but to look for someone sincere to marry you is not easy. Shahir even said that I'm too choosy. I'm not! I just can't afford to get married and cry my heart out every single day, can I?

I've been through enough.

Permintaan Hati

2011-07-03T22:37:00.004+08:00

Siapa yang mahu faham permintaan hatiku?
TUHAN.

Life's like that. I mean, MY life!

2011-07-03T22:37:00.003+08:00

Last month I felt sick looking at the traffic jam and I wanted to cry.

Last week I cried while I was driving.

Last Friday I felt sick and so lost, blank, empty.

Today I cried like mad in the car while driving. I didn’t even know why. I just wish there was a shoulder I could cry on, but unfortunately I have none.

While typing this, I am actually crying.

I want to travel around the world!

2011-06-29T18:47:00.003+08:00

I was tweeting with a friend who is going on a planned backpack trip across Indo-China. He said he and a few friends would go to Thailand, Vietnam and Cambodia. How cool is that?

It’s been quite some time that I have not travel far. When I was a younger, I had a chance to go on a tour to a few countries in Europe with my family and a few other people – most of them were Malaysian families who lived in Leeds (because at that time we were living in Leeds).

Our tour kicked off in France. I couldn’t quite remember the name of the places we went but one of the things I remember well is the experience of performing our salah on the field in front of Eiffel Tower. It’s not like every day you would get a chance to pray there. We wanted to take our wudhu’ (ablution) but the lady at the public toilet refused to let us do so. We paid to use the toilet, it’s not like we sneaked in!

So we went out of the toilet, feeling furious of course! And so we went wandering around finding ways to take our wudhu’ so that we could perform our salah. Suddenly, we saw water came out of a hose near a flower bush. I guess it was supposed to be used to water the flower. Maybe it was Allah’s help, I don’t know. And I don’t know whether that’s called stealing or what because it came out all of a sudden – why leave it unused?

Finally, our group get to perform our salah, Alhamdulillah!

Anyway, I wish I could go on such tour again and no, I don’t mean expensive shopping trips or anything. I just want to see other places- Africa, Cambodia, Indonesia, India, South America, China, etc. There are so many things we can learn by seeing for ourselves places we visit. Though we have internet that shows us a lot of things, a visit through the internet isn’t as precious as seeing it for ourselves. The value is different - totally different.

Jangan, Jangan Cuba

2011-06-20T12:14:00.000+08:00

Jangan jangan cuba kau rayu

Jangan jangan cuba kau ganggu

Jangan jangan cuba lukai aku

Hanya sekadar nafsu

Jangan jangan cuba kau paksa

Jangan jangan cuba kau siksa

Jangan jangan cuba kau cinta aku

Hanya sekadar nafsu

Jangan jangan jangan jangan

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Was listening to Hot FM Kita Punya last weekend, Tilu was the guest on the show and they sung this song live on the radio and I love it!

Dear Dad,

2011-06-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

Honestly, there's no one word to describe how special you are, and if there is a word, it might be the one I invented just to describe you.

And...

A 'thank you' isn't enough, but still, thank you for everything you have done for our family, and sorry that we don't give you a chance to 'rest' from worrying about us.

Happy father's day. You are always loved.

I'm Coming Home

2011-06-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

I'm coming home

Tell the world I'm coming home

Let the rain wash away

All the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits

And they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home

Tell the world

I'm coming...

Huda And Fairy Tales.

2011-06-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

There’s suddenly something in my mind that makes me want to be Cinderella again – something more of a wish, a prayer, a du’a that I hope if it do come true, would benefit Islam and the Ummah, inshaAllah!

And when I think of being a Cinderella, Noyu and Lyn would always appear (like magic really.. you know, like… PUFFFFF…!!! And there, they are on my mind). I can’t quite remember when we started calling each other by the name of fairy tale characters, but Lyn is Ariel in 'The Little Mermaid', Noyu is Bella from 'Beauty And The Beast' and as for me, I’m Cinderella from of course, 'Cinderella'. Maybe they call me Cinderella because I would always make sure I arrive home before it gets dark, just like Cinderella have to be home by midnight.

Oh well... maybe I could write my own version of 'Cinderella' - a fat Cinderella struggling to find the man destined for her by God (and this time the Cinderella covers her aurah properly, how about that ey?). It's not fair you know, when only slim young ladies with nice voice get to be the star in fairy tales (read: protagonist) and marry the prince while the fatsos would always be the ugly-and-mean-step sister-step mother-material (read: antagonist) - because these days, not everything physically beautiful is internally beautiful. People act, and let hypocrisy rule.

I used to love looking at Disney characters in books dad bought us when my sister and I were little girls. One of the characters I love to look at over and over again was Cinderella, with her beautiful hair and beautiful gown, dancing with a handsome prince as if they are real, and went to bed dreaming of being exactly like Cinderella without knowing that kind of life isn't everybody's life. Seriously, that could cause depression, and no wonder girls grow up wanting to be beautiful that some suffer from bulimia and anorexia. If only we knew what damage they would do to our mind and body, I bet dad wouldn't bother to spend a lot buying us those books (but Alhamdulillah, along the way, he taught us our main purpose of living in this world is definitely not THAT).

Okay, enough said.

I'm outta 'ere!

Love,

Cinderella ~~(in my dream!)~~

Welcome To My Silly Life

2011-06-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

"Made a wrong turn, once or twice.

Dug my way out, blood and fire.

Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life."

-Perfect, Pink-

I've been humming these few lines over and over again.
p/s: I cried whenever I watch the (official) video clip.

Appreciating KMS Teachers

2011-05-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

A video specially dedicated to Khalifah Model School teachers made by Khalifah Youth Circle.

I Choose To...

2011-05-29T09:58:00.001+08:00

To go out or not to go out?

A Sudden Loneliness.

2011-05-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

At first, I have planned to go to Kota Bharu to attend my friend's wedding reception but suddenly I don't feel like going to Kota Bharu.

And suddenly...

I feel lonely.

So lonely.

Fed Up!

2011-05-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

Fed up!!

God, this is hard for me to take.
Help me please!

Halal vs. Haraam

2011-05-23T00:56:00.003+08:00

Malaysia isn't yet a Muslim country. It is just another country ruled by born-Muslims.

No, this is not a political statement. It's only a statement made by a Muslim who are so furious because there are so many Muslims in this country but yet, we have to be extra careful in selecting food we eat that even the food with JAKIM's halal logo can't be trusted! It's no different compared to living in the UK really.

Hmm... this is so WRONG! It's supposed to be the other way around: the non-halal food should be labeled as 'non-halal' and consider the food that are not labeled as halal. The scenario now is Muslims have to look for halal sign before they buy everything, from food to toiletries, from dishes to brushes. Allah has made everything halal unless stated as haraam, but it seems that now, everything is made haraam unless stated as halal.

Now the concern over halal food is increasing but still, there are many who just don't care. Before this we eat whatever that we want without anyone telling us, "hey, that's not halal!". We got so used to eat everything available without having to consider the halal status that when suddenly someone come and whisper to us that we're not supposed to eat (or use) something, we got so furious and could not take it (maybe we would get the same reaction when people tell us to boycott McDonalds).

Now, the first thing to do is to educate young Muslims about halal products, the importance, ways to find and produce their own halal products - basically everything about halal. And, as an alternative, we need to provide products that could replace the non-halal products with the same or better quality. Sometimes, people refuse to get halal products because the non-halal products are of better quality, and some are cheaper. The thing is, how do we produce cheap and good quality halal product?

In this issue, the government plays an important role. They are responsible to educate the people about Islam as it is in the Quran and the Sunnah. They need to focus on instilling the correct Islamic worldview (tasawwur), then it would be easier to get people to do the right thing (according to the holy Quran and the Sunnah). After that, the government needs to invest on getting everything halal, and set up policies on halal products. When we talk about halal products, of course there would be no alcoholic drink and cigarette allowed in the country.

I think that if an individual has the correct Islamic worldview (based on the Quran and the Sunnah), he would gradually switch to halal products once he knows which is halal and which isn't. It's the matter of making a choice, and a Muslim should choose the one that would get him closer to Allah.

That's all my two pennies worth.

Allahu'alam.

What They Say About Me.

2011-05-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

Now I know.

Happy Teacher's Day 2011

2011-05-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Teacher's Day to everyone that have taught at least one living being something useful.

Thanks to Wan Sakinah & Wan Safura for the rose. I love it! My Monday Blues faded as you handed me the rose.

I've made some notes in Facebook, dedicated to those important people in life, who have taught me a lot of things in life. I can only say 'thank you'. It is Allah who able to reward the good deeds done.

The Muallim

2011-05-16T14:18:00.001+08:00

We once had a Teacher

The Teacher of teachers,

He changed the world for the better

And made us better creatures,

Oh Allah we’ve shamed ourselves

We’ve strayed from Al-Mu'allim,

Surely we’ve wronged ourselves

What will we say in front him?

Oh Mu'allim...

Chorus

He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,

Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,

He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,

Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,

Teacher of all Mankind.

Abal Qasim [one of the names of the Prophet]

Ya Habibi ya Muhammad

(My beloved O Muhammad)

Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad

(My intercessor O Muhammad)

Khayru khalqillahi Muhammad

(The best of Allah’s creation is Muhammad)

Ya Mustafa ya Imamal Mursalina

(O Chosen One, O Imam of the Messengers)

Ya Mustafa ya Shafi'al 'Alamina

(O Chosen One, O intercessor of the worlds)

He prayed while others slept

While others ate he’d fast,

While they would laugh he wept

Until he breathed his last,

His only wish was for us to be

Among the ones who prosper,

Ya Mu'allim peace be upon you,

Truly you are our Teacher,

Oh Mu'allim..

Chorus

Ya Habibi ya Muhammad

(My beloved O Muhammad)

Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad

(My intercessor O Muhammad)

Ya Rasuli ya Muhammad

(O My Messenger O Muhammad)

Ya Bashiri ya Muhammad

(O bearer of good news O Muhammad)

Ya Nadhiri ya Muhammad

(O warner O Muhammad)

'Ishqu Qalbi ya Muhammad

(The love of my heart O Muhammad)

Nuru 'Ayni ya Muhammad

(Light of my eye O Muhammad)

He taught us to be just and kind

And to feed the poor and hungry,

Help the wayfarer and the orphan child

And to not be cruel and miserly,

His speech was soft and gentle,

Like a mother stroking her child,

His mercy and compassion,

Were most radiant when he smiled.

This song touched my heart.

Would there be a chance for me to meet Rasulullah SAW, the Teacher of all teachers?

Curious Amira

2011-04-28T11:51:00.001+08:00

One fine day at Khalifah Model School.

(translated version, taken from the ustaz's Facebook status)

Amira: Ustaz, baby if they are born, the hands or the legs would come out first?

Ustaz Q: Head first.

Amira: Why?

Ustaz Q: Err.. because it's easier to come out that way (the Ustaz's heart beat fast waiting for the next question).

Amira: Oooo.. no wonder I forgot how I came out.

Ustaz Q: ......

The End.

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Children are innocent and curious that they ask anything they do not understand, let it be something good or something not so good, or something totally bad (which would sometimes make grown-ups blush). Some children don't ask. They observe, and they make their own conclusion. Whatever way that they choose, it is the grown-ups' responsibility to let children know which is the right thing to do, to say, to act, to THINK. Don't let them grow up bringing the wrong world-view because once they have taken the wrong world-view, it is not easy to change it.

And to define right and wrong, refer the holy Qur'an and the Sunnah and whatever things that make you closer to Allah, that is definitely the right thing.

So, let's check things we do and things we say and ask ourselves, "what would children (and other people) learn from me?" and "am I a good example to others?".

Let's set good example to others, especially to children. May Allah bless us.

Different World

2011-04-28T10:46:00.001+08:00

Kau selalu di hati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza

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Yes. We're like, figuratively, in different world. Is there a way we would meet some day soon?
Only Allah knows.

Criminal Being Caught Red-handed

2011-04-27T22:39:00.001+08:00

Two days ago, nearby Giant Batu Caves, while waiting for the traffic light to turn green, there was this black Alphard in front of me. Suddenly, I saw someone on the passenger side throwing something out of the car (I don't think he threw gold, or cash, or even his credit card, so it should be rubbish). Okay. That's not something he should do. And so, there I was, mumbling to myself how uncivilized that man is.

Moments later, he looked out of the window, and threw a plastic bag out from the window. Now, he's turning from an uncivilized man to a criminal. He wrecked the environment!

My dad and I used to talk about an issue, a bit like this one. He said, "We have first class facility, with third class mentality." Bravo! Now, if you are among those who throw rubbish outside the window, you know which class you are in.

Missing Them.

2011-04-26T16:48:00.000+08:00

ANNSEN, aku rindu kalian.

Patience

2011-04-26T13:58:00.002+08:00

Sabar itu indah

That's Solusi's topic in their new issue (issue 31).

Patience is beautiful - which, you can only see the beauty after you have been patient. Being patient is the challenging part though, but the result of being patient is a wonderful reward. Those who act foolishly when they have failed to be patient, would soon regret.

To mark the importance of being patient, Allah SWT has mentioned 'patience'/'patient' 90 times in the Qur'an (source: Istighfaar). Patience is the way to earn the companionship of Allah as in surah al-Anfal 8:46,

“…and be patient. Indeed, Allah is with the patient.”

So, Huda, please, please, please, be patient! Let people say all they want. They're not God, they don't know what is in your mind, what is in your heart.

Be patient.

Please.

You'll please Allah by doing so.

Lately...

2011-04-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

Lately Part I

Lately I don't have much time to read or write. Only God knows how I miss sitting quietly reading a book, trying to understand what the author is trying to deliver or sitting in front of a laptop, translating thoughts into visuals (read: words).

Okay. Maybe my writing isn't that good, and most of the time, I write ~~rubbish~~, but when I started secondary school, living away from family and not knowing who to spill everything to, I started writing to myself. Later, I wrote to pen-friends from other states in Malaysia and from other countries too.

I haven't got much time to write and read lately that lately I've been thinking about quitting my job, and seek other job which requires me to either read, or write, or maybe both. Would that be the best decision?

Lately Part II

Gosh.

Lately my mood isn't at its' best. And for the first time, I got really angry at students that I trembled and I nearly cried (Alhamdulillah, I managed to control myself there). There was silence in the room, and it was awkward and no fun at all! I hated it!

Lately Part III

Lately, weekends are not something I look forward to. But then, weekdays are something I wish would end fast. Oh heck, what has gotten into me?? Nothing seems right. I'm beginning to become the negative me again.

Lately Part IV

Oh! I've put on weight, ow.. wait, let me be frank. I'm FAT now. It's not like I like being fat, but I could not skip a meal, or else, I would feel sick. But people are so materialistic that they would make fun at fat people!

Lately Part V

Matchmaking.

Yikes! I hate it! When you're not beautiful, and you're stupid, you would hate it the most.

Lately VI

Lately many bad things happen to me, I wonder why?

d[+_+]b d[+_+]b d[+_+]b d[+_+]b

I'm done. Time to sleep.

Good night Earthlings!

Perfect. Just Perfect.

2011-04-20T20:47:00.004+08:00

Perfect by Pink.

Been listening to that song a few times now in the radio, but only this morning I get to listen to it carefully.

Pretty, pretty please

Don’t you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than

Less than perfect.

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothing

You are perfect to me.

That would be my new chant I guess.

And watching the official video clip brought tears to my eyes - perhaps that's the summary of my life, partly, at least.

Would You Understand?

2011-04-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

Two tall shelves of books,

and I'm looking for more!

"Duh! You and your books!"

said one.

"What do you do with all these books?"

asked another.

I smiled,

and shrugged,

without one word

I walked away.

How am I to explain

of love and passion,

of knowledge and benefits,

of friends in the bag

that are there for me all the time?

So, I turned around

shoved them books

that I've dearly kept all these while.

I told them,

"Here, read these.

You'll know why,"

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I wrote this some time back and contributed it in Receipt Story - not my best piece, but it's an honest thought.

Killed By OUR Choice

2011-04-07T19:32:00.002+08:00

At the moment I'm at KFC Giant Batu Caves. I always come here, especially when I have a lot of things in my mind. Usually when I come here, I would buy some food and read a book. As for today, I have my laptop with me so I thought, why not use the facility that KFC has provided? So here I am, writing another entry which takes me ages to start *sigh*.

Today I got myself a KFC Jom Jimat box and wedges (without the cheese on) and soft drink. When I was queuing, I saw a large boy calling his mom who happened to stand in front of me. He's so 'healthy' but yet his parents still want to feed him with fast food.

As for me, I do eat fast food (and junk food *blush*) but I start to enjoy fast food when I was in high school, which was the first time I lived far from my parents. My mom doesn't like fast food, she's so concerned about halal issue, that's why. Or else, I bet I would be fed with a lot of fast food too!

Nowadays, people got so busy that they always resort to fast food to ensure their family eats enough. But, is enough really enough?

Now, while the government banned fast food advertisements on children's TV show to encourage healthy eating (because more Malaysians have becoming obese,) the more alluring fast food ads that come on TV, mostly those that encourage parents to take their children to fast food outlets. One ad gives the idea that a family eating fast food together could keep children from fighting with each other while eating. The other encourages moms and dads to buy fast food after work because they are too tired (and lazy) to cook. Hence, I really think banning fast food ads on children's TV show isn't really working in preventing unhealthy eating because fast food now has becoming a part of our culture - an unhealthy culture (and yeah, fast food makes us lazy too! So in the end, laziness would be our culture too).

This issue got me thinking, isn't there any healthy fast food available for consumers; food that would feed your hunger (because it's yummy!), but low of cholesterol and fat, and would make you healthier? I guess if that kind of food is available, it might cost us a bomb, more than it cost us a plate of KFC Snack Plate (which isn't that cheap!), but I guess, if Malaysians are aware of their health, they would not mind those extra Ringgit to grab anything fast, but yet healthy.

This so-called trend of taking fast food puts another item in our 'Things To Worry About' list. Malaysians now not only have to worry about getting killed by other people or car crash, they also have to worry about getting killed by their own choice of food.

And when I say Malaysians, that includes me *grin*.

Great Weekend That Made Me Broke

2011-03-20T22:28:00.227+08:00

Alhamdulillah! I've had one of the best weekends ever. Yesterday Angah and I went to watch 'Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal' at Istana Budaya and it was superb! From my unprofessional point of view, I would give it 9 stars out of 10, how's that? To those who haven't seen it, I suggest you go get your ticket FAST from Ticket2u. The show is on until 3 April 2011. This isn't something you want to miss!

Seat number: D28 & D27. Pretty nice view from there.

Later that day, we went to KLCC to get something to eat and decided to go Japanese. I was struggling with the chopsticks, ate the rice with a spoon but yet, tried my very best to get the salad and meat with chopsticks, don't they say 'practice makes perfect'? so I should try use chopsticks often, shouldn't I? [^_~]

Japanese Hamburger (with rice?)

And yeah, before we went to Istana Budaya, we met an old friend from high school, Wani. It was great to see her. Though she works nearby our place, it's not easy to catch up with each other regularly. Anyway, I'm so glad I met Wani. We were in the same class until form 3, and after that she was in Accounting class, and I was in Science class so there was not much time to hang out together like before so almost every morning I would stop by her class to chat, catch up with a few things. I tend to trust her advice rather than other girls that I hung out with, so Wani, thanks for all your advices all these while. Girl, you're a great friend.

As for today, Angah and I joined in Baca@LRT: Girang. I was interviewed twice and heck, it was awkward because I have never been interviewed before. I mean, I'm not a somebody, so who would want my piece of mind ey? But anyway, I had a jolly good time meeting friends from Baca@LRT, I even made some new friends, Saadah, Zati and Hafiz. And yeah, I met an old friend, she was a senior back in high school. Nice meeting all of you.

Today, we get to meet King Richard Booth, the king of Hay-on-Wye, a book town somewhere in Wales, United Kingdom, which is the first book town in the world. Hay-on-Wye is the place where bibliophiles in the UK get to find books, many of them are second-hand books.

Second-hand book always reminds me of car-boot sales that my family and I loved going to when we were living in the UK. It was crazy! You can get a good condition second-hand book for just 20p which, in Malaysia, is now around 80 sen. Super-duper cheap! When it was time to come back to Malaysia, we had a lot of books to bring with us. Now, we gave some of them away because the books are no more suitable for us - but I still keep Enid Blyton's books because they are among my favourites.

Anyway, after Baca@LRT, we went to BookXcess but I could only buy two books because I'm on a really tight budget. Why? Because lately I've been spending a lot on art and craft stuff. I even bought a paper-craft book from BookXcess - the first one in my history as a book-lover.

See that? RM17.90!

After that we hit Mid Valley and went to Art Friend at The Gardens and Paper Boutique at Mid Valley Megamall. I'm longing for eyelet puncher but, as I told you earlier, I'm on a tight budget. Yesterday I've already spent a lot on buttons and ribbons. As for today, I bought different colours of felt fabric, needle, threads, (more) buttons and (more) ribbons. And so, here I am announcing that officially, I am broke! :(

Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

Earth Hour 2011

2011-03-17T21:48:00.001+08:00

Earth Hour is a global initiative in partnership with WWF. Individuals, businesses, governments and communities are invited to turn out their lights for one hour on Saturday March 26, 2011 at 8:30 PM to show their support for environmentally sustainable action. The event began in Sydney in 2007, when 2 million people switched off their lights. By 2010, Earth Hour had created history as the largest voluntary action ever witnessed with participation across 128 countries and every continent, including the world’s most recognized man-made marvels and natural wonders in a landmark environmental action.

Taken from Earth Hour 2011: Growing Beyond the Hour: Pledge to “Live Green"

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This year, I won't be able to participate because Khalifah Institute is having its' annual charity dinner on that very night. Last year, alhamdulillah I managed to switch off the light for half an hour because I was out to KL International Book Fair last and only arrived home at 9:00pm.

Though we are encouraged to switch off the light for an hour during Earth Hour as one of the efforts to conserve our living planet, we need to slowly go beyond that - save energy at all time, whenever possible and learn why you need to save energy (you need to read more about it. Try log on to WWF Malaysia or Earth Hour to find out more, or google it) so that you are clear of why you are doing it.

So Malaysia, let Earth Hour be the start towards a better-living planet and to fulfill our third responsibility of a Khalifah of Allah, make the physical world clean and beautiful, inshaAllah!

Make your pledge here

Live Green pledge

Baca@LRT [Big YAY!]

2011-03-17T20:51:00.003+08:00

Once again, it's time for Baca@LRT - an effort to help people realise that reading is cool and can be done anytime, anywhere especially when you're waiting for the LRT or in it. It's fun! And plus, you get to find friends who treasure books and knowledge through Baca@LRT, and I say, friends like that could enhance reading experience and make reading even more fun. Seriously, who says you have to read only when you're alone. And who says those who read a lot are no fun at all? I read. My sisters read. My dad reads. My friends read. And when we hang out, we do have fun. Mind you, book lovers do watch movies, play bowling and listen to rock music too, okkkkkaaaayyyy!

This time Baca@LRT is collaborating with
Persatuan Kebangsaan Pelajar Islam Malaysia (PKPIM)

So, if you're a first timer, this is what you need to do:

Go to Baca@LRT group in Facebook;
join the group by clicking 'Join' (it's an open group so there should be no problem in joining straight away);
look out for notices (usually they will send you messages informing about Baca@LRT's latest activity);
once you get the message on Baca@LRT's latest event, check whether you're free or not at that time. If you are, make sure you save it for Baca@LRT;
if you have decided to join any activity, make sure you be there on time so that you won't miss out anything; and
don't forget to bring you book anywhere you go, and have fun reading!

To show your support, put this up as your profile picture.

For Baca@LRT March 2011, these are what you need to do:

Register yourself at http://bit.ly/bacalrtmac11 or check out the event page in Facebook (so that Baca@LRT team would have the rough idea on how many are coming);
be at Terminal Putra Gombak LRT station at 10:15am on Sunday, March 20;
buy your ticket to Taman Jaya (because that's where all of us are stopping);
if possible, look out for those who are joining as well (they could be your new good friends!);
board the LRT as soon as it arrives;
find your own seat (or if you have to stand up, find somewhere safe so that you won't fall);
after a few minutes, take out your book and start reading until you reach Taman Jaya LRT station;
stop at Taman Jaya LRT station; and
you are free to go anywhere you want after that but I recommend you to go to Armcorp Mall right opposite Taman Jaya LRT station, find BookXcess where you might find books from your favourite author at an unbelievably cheap price!

So,

have a fun reading everyone!

All That Are Too Much For The Mind To Accept

2011-03-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Answering three exam papers in a row, one whole day! That is waaaayyyyyyyyy out of MY logical mind!!! But, that was what my sister Angah, our friend Masyitah and I did today. Well, of course in my case, I went to have fun first before I forced my mind to literally eat those mind-boggling questions.

Yesterday my brother Man, my sisters Angah and Faqehah and I went to Wangsa Walk to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa. The movie was scheduled at 1:45pm so we decided to play bowling first. I lost both games but I managed to get three strikes at the end of the first game ~~*gila kentang!*~~

After all the madness of yesterday and today, finally I get to put together some buttons to make something cute and useful out of them.

And did I tell you, I got a pair of new wedges last week? *wink*

Shoes + Bag + Clothes = ?

2011-02-25T22:31:00.001+08:00

I need (at least) a pair of new shoes!

~~Ehem.. Dad's going to New York for a week. Is there any chance of getting me a pair of shoes from there?~~

I love wedges but walking with them would hurt my feet.
I love flat shoes too, but flats always hurt my feet.
I love canvas shoes, but I don't have anything that goes with them.
I love boots, but would I look funny in them?
I love sandals, but they are not suitable for some occasions.
I love high heels, but I'm fat so high heels aren't healthy for my feet.
I love slippers, but I would be chased out if I attend formal events wearing them.
I love skate shoes, but if I wear them, people would say I'm a poser.
I love sport shoes, but it's not like I go jogging or play sport all the time.

I love shoes, but...

NOTHING FIT ME WELL!

People say, just buy them to reward myself, but I've been delaying some work and so there's nothing to reward a procrastinator. So, if I buy new shoes now, it is because I need them, and I can't buy the expensive, fancy ones.

Oh.. now I remember, I need to get a new bag too, but the condition isn't as bad as my shoes so there's no hurry in getting it yet.

But oh...I'm longing for sleeveless shirt dress (with belt) from Padini and long-sleeved shirt dress from SEED.

Oh well... these stuff need to wait. I have a lot of better things to do with my money anyway.

Art Stuff at Art Shop

2011-02-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

Today I went to Mid Valley City with my sister, Angah. Was looking for some art stuff, especially quilling tools, but they said the tools are out of stock, so I went to look around and see what I found...

Tadaaaaaaaaa...!!!

Craft puncher big and small.

I found this at Art Friend shop The Gardens - the small one is RM7.90 and the big one is RM16.90. They also have a medium-size craft punch, I think it's RM10.90 each - been eying this thing before at Sogo's Harvest stationery shop.

I also found some buttons (but can't beat those cute buttons at Giffy!) at Paper Boutique Mid Valley Megamall. Since I couldn't find quilling tools today, I made an order at Soul Sisters Quilling Shop. Hopefully they have what I've ordered.

Anyway, I'm hoping that I have time to go to Giffy this weekend (this time hope I would make it), make a quick visit, see for myself what they have - next time I won't be so lost when I go there. Hopefully they have some nice ribbons there, besides buttons of course!

As for tomorrow, I have a lot of things to do. Excel Ummah AGM, meeting my friend at KLCC, (maybe I could stop by Kinokuniya *wink*) and insha Allah to Masjid Wilayah for Maulidur Rasul event there. On Sunday, my sister and I are planning to attend Fewwit: Bebas Dari Belenggu at IIUM. Hope Allah ease everything - because I've just registered for both of us. Hope they accept our registration.

*~~Arghhh...!~~ Today the Internet connection wants to test my patience*

Miyyah@Kertas First Giveaway - I Want To Win It!!!

2011-02-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

Miyyah@Kertas first giveaway - a photo album, and it's oh, soOOoOOooOOoo beautiful! Wish that photo album would be mine (which means, I win the giveaway but, would I?).

I want it! I want it! I want it!

PLEASE!

Quilling: Beginner Part II

2011-02-13T09:33:00.003+08:00

Just to share my second and third quilling attempt.

A bookmark. It's supposed to be rain falling onto a bunch of tulips.

A birthday card. Inside it reads "... and older! Happy birthday!"

Yesterday Atiqah suggested to use glue stick. Though I am not confident that glue stick would stick well, I still bought a glue stick so that I could do my own experiment. It turns out that on bigger surface, papers would stick together but on small surface (like the one on birthday card), it's hard to make it stick.

I bought this glue stick because it says 'Goes on purple, then dries clear' and 'easy, clean & washable'.

I'm thinking, maybe for tiny thin parts like that, I should use a thicker paper. For both my second and third attempt, I used 80gms paper. Yesterday I was looking for 100gms paper at Sogo but there wasn't much choice there. I did not have much time to look around at other shops so I have to make do with whatever that I have.

Anyway, the black paper is acid-free, as for the yellow paper and white card, I don't know whether they're acid-free or not. Acid-free paper is a type of wood-pulp paper that has had its lignin (a complex chemical compound most commonly derived from wood, and an integral part of the secondary cell walls of plants and some algae: refer Wikipedia: Lignin) removed. Once the lignin is removed, the paper won't go yellow and deteriorate over time (Wikipedia: Acid-free paper), so I guess using acid-free paper would ensure your work is preserved longer.

Acid-free paper symbol. I don't think in Malaysia we use this symbol to indicate acid-free paper, usually they only label the paper 'acid-free'.

I have to get ready. My sister has planned to go to Broga to climb a hill there and if we're really going, I have to tidy up the house first before we get to do some outdoor activities.

Until next time.

I'm The First???

2011-02-12T04:56:00.000+08:00

Today I went to Giant Batu Caves (again!) to get some stuff. Lucky there weren't many people around so I didn't have to queue. When I got to the cashier, the cashing scanned the items that I wanted to buy and when he wanted to take out the plastic (to put my the things that I bought), I told him I don't want any plastic. And guess what that cashier said? "You're the first customer that doesn't want any plastic bag."

Oh heck!

I was at 7 Eleven yesterday and I got nearly the same reaction.

Double heck!

The cashier at Giant said, "You should bring your own shopping bag tomorrow (Saturday)" (because formally, Saturday is Malaysia's no-plastic day), so I told him that I bring my shopping bag every day, he guessed that I work for Department of Environment.

Triple heck!

I told him that I only work with an NGO. And I told him why should we wait for Saturday only? Overseas they're doing it every day without being told to do so. The cashier said, "That's different...."

Arghhhh!!! Then, I couldn't be bothered to continue talking to him.

Somebody please educate him!

Quilling: Beginner Part I

2011-02-12T04:26:00.002+08:00

Today marks my first attempt to quilling. I don't know how much time a quilling expert would take doing the same piece that I did, but it took me more than five hours to get it done. Phew! Now it's done - and it's pretty messy! But it's okay, this is only my first time right? There would be more, and there would be improvement, insha Allah!

How did I know about quilling? Well, I saw a friend's photo on her Facebook profile and I got attracted. And some other friends gave me links to check out on quilling. And... I start to fall in love with quilling. Thanks Pida, Mun, Atiqah and Athirah for introducing me to quilling :)

A Story of Time-wasting.

2011-02-06T23:34:00.025+08:00

Five days off from work and I feel so restless - and honestly, I don't think the trip to Kota Bharu was a good idea. I mean, I hardly do anything there! It's like I have more things to do here than back in Kota Bharu, even my friend didn't reply my SMS which made me fed up. Before I got to Kota Bharu, we went to Kemaman and Paka and I saw this signboard:

The board says: 'Don't you feel guilty throwing rubbish from your car?'

Bad news. I was supposed to collect my 'Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal' ticket on Wednesday, but when I wanted to go out, someone stopped me from going. I wish I could do something about it but arguing would be useless, I wouldn't win anyway. So, I guess I have to make another booking since every booked ticket needs to be collected in three days. The problem is, I don't know when I'm going to be able to collect the ticket since I'm working Monday - Friday, and sometimes, on weekends too. And oh no, the seats that I had booked earlier are now sold! Double bummer!

Tomorrow is a working day. Let's see what I have to do the whole week next week:

Find out the status of the LPPKN proposal.
Invigilate online exam.
Send SMS to confirm registration for Khalifah Method for Self-Excellence Seminar.
Find materials for Sisters' Circle (I Love Prophet Muhammad PBUH!).
Tidy up my office table.
Prepare checklist for Khalifah Method for Self-Excellence Seminar.
Update Khalifah Institute blog.
Make calls to promote Khalifah Method for Self-Excellence Seminar.

BTW, on 29 January, Khalifah Youth Circle had their Appreciation Day. Though it wasn't grand, but I'm sure it served its' purpose to strengthen the ukhuwwah among the members. Too bad I couldn't make it, but I got a baseball bat and a ball, a gift from Bro. Qayyum. Now, all I need to do is find someone to play with and a field big enough to hit the ball far (haha! Would I be able to hit the ball?). When I was in Leeds (which was in 1994-1996), I played a little bit of cricket and I loved it! Too bad it's not very popular here in Malaysia. Anyway, thanks Qayyum!

I'm off now. Been wasting my time a lot and been eating too much. Now I feel sick and I hope I would be fine in the morning, insha Allah!

Good night... Earthlings!

Lat Kampung Boy: Sebuah Muzikal at Istana Budaya

2011-02-02T01:56:00.001+08:00

Yay! I have already booked two tickets for my sister and me to watch 'Lat Kampung Boy: Sebuah Muzikal' at Istana Budaya, Kuala Lumpur. InshaAllah I will go pay and collect the ticket in the morning (because in the afternoon we're going back to our own kampung. Double yay!).

'Lat Kampung Boy: Sebuah Muzikal' will be from 17 March until 3 April 2011. Ticket price is from RM40 until RM300, but of course, the more you pay, the better view you will get. This theater is a joint production between Institut Terjemahan Negara Malaysia (ITNM), Tall Order Production Sdn Bhd and Istana Budaya.

For synopsis of 'Lat Kampung Boy: Sebuah Muzikal', visit ITNM's website. To purchase your ticket visit Ticket2u.

Friends from Khalifah Youth Circle (KYC) are going too, on the same date and time as mine but we won't be sitting together. I think there would be four of the KYCs who are going, and there would be some other people as well, their friends and family I think. Anyway, I just hope we would have a jolly good time that day (and still remember Allah of course!) -though it's like 40-something-days left until the show, and hope Datuk Lat's life would inspire us.

formspring.me

2011-01-28T15:43:00.001+08:00

If you want to ask, just shoot! http://formspring.me/hudaengku

Calling Maher Zain's Fans.. AGAIN!!!

2011-01-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

It's just last year that Maher Zain was here, now he's coming back to Malaysia! He must've loved it here. Should bring your family along bro! It's nice and sunny here. Well anyway, this time, it will be a concert! Wow! I wish I have the money and time to go. Seriously, I can afford the RM53 ticket but I don't think I would go just to sit very far from the stage and could see almost nothing! If I go, I want to get the RM297 ticket but I can't afford that right now. d[@_@]b

If you guys wanna go, check out Maher Zain Live in Concert event page on Facebook for more details.

Get your ticket fast if you don't want to be miss out!

WIR Campaign

2011-01-12T18:37:00.003+08:00

What is WIR? NO, it is not another rude, swearing word. Why should I campaign for such nasty thing to say anyway.

W I R

is actually:

Wear It Right

For Muslim women, they should know that they need to dress modestly and moderately and cover parts of their body that need to be covered (basically it's all their body parts except their face and hands). They must also cover their chest (oh do I have to explain why?) and not dress so tightly that it would be no different than those walking down the street naked.

Some women think that wearing headscarf is just merely covering their hair but it's actually more than that. One of the purposes of covering our aurah (parts of the body that need to be covered) is to avoid men to look at us in a sexual way (though you should always put in mind that you cover your aurah is because Allah tells you to) and could lead to bad intention and act if we are not careful. I say, covering our aurah properly is a way to take care of ourselves.

So, let's 'Wear It Right' and cover our chest girls! May Allah reward us with happiness and peace of mind and bless us always for trying our best to obey Him.

Frankly, I am in the process of trying my best to follow Allah's guidelines in dressing up as a Muslim woman. It is a jihad to be consistent in fighting the urge to look good and being noticed in front of other people. I have to train myself to use my inner-speech well to fight that urge. Sometimes I succeed, but many times I failed and when I have failed, I would tell myself 'REPENT!".

Friends, please remind me if I forget and if I get angry because of your reminder, remind me that it was me that told you to remind me (phew!). d[^_^]b

By the way, I got this campaign from Sue Anna Joe's blog. Thank you so much.

~Thank You Friends~

2011-01-03T18:57:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I met Faisal, my classmate when I did Form 6 at Institute Pendidikan Kota Bharu.

Today I met bro Jojo, a great advisor.

Thank you guys for your time.

Happy Birthday To ME!

2011-01-03T18:16:00.002+08:00

Okay. This might be late. But like they say, it's better late than never (do you agree on that saying?). I want to wish myself a happy belated birthday and that wish is valid until the next 28 December. Wishlist? A lot. If I mention them here, would you help me get them? *wink*

Worst Life Ever? Not Yet!

2010-12-17T08:35:00.006+08:00

It's been quite some time that I haven't really sit down and write something in here. I don't have a laptop now and Celcom broadband sucks (heck, that's convenient!).

So what's up?

My life is getting worse each moment, but then I guess, it's not the worst!

These days, family is like a bunch of strangers living under one roof, or just merely house mates in a modern city where everybody isn't talking much to anybody because somehow they don't think that socializing with the community is important. Duh! And when someone starts to talk, trying to share stuff about their life, others would shrug and walk away. Or they would turn their back as soon as you step into the room. Now THAT is LONELY.

Have you ever stare at the wall (all four walls), wondering is it a one party responsibility to always contact people who claimed that they are a friend? I have. Everything seems quiet. My phone doesn't even ring (except for work purposes). And I keep wondering - did I do something wrong?

Anyway, at the moment, I'm working on making my dream come true - hope no one would stop me (because it's not a sin).

Berubah

2010-12-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

Huda Engku
1:21am/9 Disember 2010
Teratak Ayahanda

Heart-Breaking Ritual

2010-11-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

It's like you walk towards me and when you're a foot away, you push me. And you keep repeating it like it's a ritual.

I hate it when you do that to me!

But, thank you anyway.

"Keinginan untuk memiliki sesuatu adalah nafsu. Sabar untuk memiliki sesuatu adalah kekuatan."

The Sacrifice Of A White Mouse In A Lab

2010-10-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry. I disappoint you more than I make you happy. I'm sorry.

****************

My happiness isn't important. Theirs is.

I'm the white mouse in a lab - sacrificed for the good of other living being.

“There are times when strangers are like family, and family are like strangers.”

Puisi Buat Ayahanda - Fynn

2010-10-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

Terkesan.

Sungguh.

Who Deserve Me At My Best?

2010-10-10T21:24:00.001+08:00

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

- Marilyn Monroe -

Said Marilyn Monroe. On my behalf. (because she said it all)

Congratulations... And Thank You

2010-10-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

Congratulation to my sister for graduating.

Congratulation to my mom and dad for my sister's graduation - it's the first in the family. (Sorry I'm not the first. But I'll make you proud, I'll be better.. Maybe later.)

Congratulation to those who got married today.

Congratulation to a friend for her engagement.

Congratulation to me for telling myself not to be so negative.

And thank you to those who care.

Terima Kasih Bai

2010-10-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

Kata Bai, mungkin ini masanya untuk kami berdikari.

Terima kasih Bai. Huda punya sebab untuk kuat. Dan terima kasih kerana jadi kawan Huda - walaupun kebanyakan masa kita bersua cuma di alam maya. Mungkin Allah jadikan Huda tidak ramai kawan kerana Allah mahu Huda hargai mereka yang benar-benar peduli.

Semoga rezekimu melimpah-ruah. Ameen!

Aku Rindu Lagi

2010-10-05T21:12:00.007+08:00

Better Than Taking The Elevator!

2010-10-05T15:44:00.007+08:00

Yay! I climbed a hill. Why was I excited? Because the last time I did some climbing was in Mekah, we went up Jabal an-Nur at night to see for ourselves the place where prophet Muhammad PBUH isolated himself from his people and that was a year ago!

Well, it was an achievement, for someone who go out only for shopping for books, clothes and food - and yeah, who is good at climbing the escalators and elevators, and not very good with the stairs. Haha! No, really. I wish I could go out often for more adventure trips but I don't think mom & dad would let me, not without them and do you think they would tag along if I ask them to go climbing with me? Not in a zillion years!

When I went to Kuala Tahan last month (because my sisters and I followed dad to another of government's water safety project), and to see the scenery there was totally awesome! There will be a trip to Taman Negara where they will take participants to see fungus in the forest. Too bad I have no budget for it yet, and anyway, would dad let me participate in it?

*Life is boring when all you want is adventure but all the time, people stop you from selecting and going through the excitement of risky and challenging path. 'Two roads diverged in a yellow wood.' - that is the poem I taught my students before, but when I'm in the middle of choosing which road to take, two guards would stop me from taking the road not taken by anybody. They would tell me to take the road taken by everyone else, it's safer - but guess what, it's BORING!!

Trust Me

2010-10-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I last posted my poetry at Kapasitor. I miss Kapasitor. I miss writing. But I have to do something else first, gotta set my priority. Please make du'a for me peeps ,so that I would get my life back on track as soon as possible.